Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Here I Am

I am avoiding writing.

I am avoiding writing because there are things going on that I do not want to write about. It involves the story I never wanted to tell, the story that lies so far behind me I often convince myself that I've outrun it.

Even Max noticed and mentioned at breakfast that I don't seem to be doing much writing.

And then this morning, this from Mary Oliver's book, Dream Work.

You don’t want to hear the story
of my life, and anyway
I don’t want to tell it, I want to listen

to the enormous waterfalls of the sun.

And anyway it’s the same old story - - -
a few people just trying,
one way or another,
to survive.

Mostly, I want to be kind.
And nobody, of course, is kind,
or mean,
for a simple reason.

And nobody gets out of it, having to
swim through the fires to stay in
this world.
So, I'm still here, walking around with a pen in my hand, avoiding paper.

6 comments:

  1. Beautiful poem. I send you light while you're deciding what stories you want/need to tell.

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  2. I just read an interview with Mary Oliver in O Magazine---I think it was with Maria Shriver. She is one of my favorite poets...thanks for sharing.

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  3. i hate how it feels when it bubbles up

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  4. I'm sure we'll all see you (at least virtually) on the other side of whatever's going on. Take care!

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  5. Christy (Boots) BenoitMarch 22, 2011 at 3:30 PM

    We should collaborate......it would dilute the unpleasantness sweet sister!!

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  6. Yes, I'm feeling for you...felt it too...not easy--but once across the river, oh how good it feels...

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